New York, new me

So, this is me- writing to you 7 months since my last post. So much for writing consistently. I have a lot to share...
Since then, I've moved away from my dad to live with my aunt in New York. I'm sharing a room with my cousin (10 year old boy) and I really don't like it. Eating wise, things haven't changed. When I get into a bingey mode, my mind will know its WRONG, but I do it anyway. I know I've changed though, because before, I would binge and then after, I would feel bad about it. But now, I know before I binge the consequences that will result. To overcome these urges, I just have to distract myself with something else. I know what I have to do, but my motivation is drained every time I tell myself "This time is different" "This time I'll stick with it" and my favorite "Tomorrow's a new day" Why not now? Why not start NOW? I ask myself this question every time. And my answer is always the same. The true slogan of an addict-- "Because I can quit whenever I want to." I'm not going to sit here and lie to myself anymore. Because this thing doesn't get changed overnight. That's one thing I've come to learn. I know that sticking to my lifestyle change will be a struggle, but once I manage to overcome my constant urges, I'll make peace with my eating and end this constant fight inside myself.